Sometimes in life you look up and you realize that life has been moving at the speed of light. In that moment, you realize that you are not at all where you thought you would be. This can be good. Yet, this is can also be not so good.
And there I am. If you look closely, you can see me, the young thirty something wife, with the good-looking professional husband, the three children, dog, mortgage and a car note. Throw in a few extra pounds and you might just catch a glimpse of the subtle expression of utter desperation as I struggle to keep the plates spinning and the world turning for myself and my family. I am in that space between good...and not so good.
It's time to go back. Somewhere in the shuffle of life, parts of this woman was left behind. Some things needed to be discarded; this is true. However, sometimes, in those moments of frantically looking for the keys that I have lost for the umpteenth time or that missing sock, I realize that I am really looking for the left behind fragments of a young confident girl who got shoved aside by a young woman struggling to attain an elusive something.
In this blog, I hope to record my thoughts, opinions, struggles, and life changing efforts. She may be left behind, but not for long.
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